I've found in you my easiest inspiration-
why is death such a motivation?
And I've found in you my most hurtful downfall-
Turns out I have no father afterall

I've learned from you everything that I now am in life-
whoever I was I have tried to cut out with your old brown pocket knife.
And I've learned from you to take on everything that I can't handle
you always told me not to, but regardless, left me in the darkness with an unlit candle.

Your actions reversed every word you've ever said to me.
I've been trying my hardest, but I can't look up to someone I can't see.
And your actions made the loved ones I have left now go insane.
Is this how you keep the promise you gave me of 'no more pain'?

Is it, daddy, is it?
Are you watching, daddy, are you?
Half of me hates you, daddy, hates you.
Where did you go though daddy, where are you?

And why do I cry more in the month November, daddy?
Why'd you make me hate the month Novmeber?